It's life....get over it!

Life isn't always great and most definitely not easy. Anyone who tells you otherwise, is in way over their head and have yet to be "on their own".

When you are mature enough to get married, that means you are also responsible enough to not be a dependent on anyone else, but yourselves. My strings were cut completely from my parents when I got married. My point, Matt has worked his ass off to get where we are now. We didn't think we would be homeowners at the age of 20, less than a year after we got married, but because of his hard work, we were able to buy a beautiful house! My priorities changed drastically when I got married, and especially after having a baby. I no longer put myself first. I never ask for things anymore. Ethan's well being and happiness outweighs anything I could ever have. That's what being a parent means to me, making sure that my children are healthy, happy, and safe. Sure, I would love to get my hair done professionally, but the guilt of spending $60 plus doesn't sit well with me anymore. There are more important things to spend (save) our extra money on than my hair or being tan! It's funny, all of the people who judge me on materialistic things are still living at home with hardly any financial responsibilities. I don't take credit for Matt's hard work, not for one second. I say "we" b/c we are married. But, I owe everything we have to him!

I'm a stay at home mom, and that job title does not just mean, watch a baby all day. I also have to keep up with the house. I have never asked Matt to do laundry and never asked him to help me clean. Why should I? He works 5 out of 7 days, sometimes 12 days in a row. Sometimes he cooks dinner, but I don't ask him to, he just wants to, and of course I have to clean up the mess lol. I enjoy living in a clean house and I always have. I'm not a neat freak, I just like things to be clean.

I don't have a lot of friends anymore. The few friends I kept in touch with after high school are in college doing their own thing, not thinking about my kind of lifestyle for a few more years. I met a few moms, but didn't really hit it off with anyone to the point where we ever hang out or see each other. I got a facebook to keep in touch with family who I never even hear from. I just sometimes feel like my husband is my only friend, my only true friend. I don't need a lot of friends, but it would be nice to know that I could have someone to lean on besides my husband. Let's face it, he doesn't always want to hear everything I have to say lol. Oh well. I think I'm just being an emotional pregnant woman!

Married life is amazing!! Being a mother is also very amazing! I wouldn't go back or trade it for anything in the world. I love my husband and my children more than anything! THEY are my world!

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